Back from chalet.. hahas. had lots of fun at the chalet..hehes. drink drank but not drunk..ROFL!!! BBQ food was excellent. ETC ETC... LOL.. too many things to say le. LOL.. back to sch on monday le..zzz.. holidays are over in a blink of an eye... chk my daily grades and i got another 2 more As. hehe.. so far so good. wonder how my ut is gonna do.. so update till here. gonna enjoy my holidays for as long as i can...byebye.





HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!

Woots~~~ LOL.. holidays are here and it is gonna be fun. hahas. chalet coming in two days time.. hehe. drinking and BBQ.. LOL.. those dumb and funny games we gonna play will give us lots of laughter. hahas. holidays are fun with chalet. no need wake up early go sch for 1 short week. *sad* but at least got holiday. hahas. now addicted to one stupid game.. LOL.. shall not say the name of the game in case i get laugh by people. hahas. tml is deepavali. so Happy Deepavali to the Indians. :D.. thats all.





It is f**king pissing me off man!! Everyday i come home oso want quarrel with me. zzz.. jus dunno wad u wan me to do!!! My life is in beserk now!!! School now don't have pen, books, so i use my laptop to study and play. So isit wrong. Sit outside de living roon oni face the stupid TV, will u all talk to me.? NO!!! So why shld i bother sitting outside and face the coloured rectangle box with images!! i must well watch my movies in my laptop... So unreasonable is what causes me to be like this since secondary school. Now trying to be better, yet u freaking people are causing me to change my mind and give me the thoughts of why should i chg better for u all. Don't find the need to spend more time with u all le. I rather slack outside and even more happier!! Coming home is jus a shelter with no feelings. Jus coming home to sleep and off i go to sch le. So i guess i have de feeling of not going home early nowadays.zzz.. Sorry for all these boring posts, cos i m jus very fed up and tired of all these crap le!!! Sick and tired of these nonsense. Nites. slping is the best!!!





Today was not a good day. moodswing here and thr. Today's sci was boring and difficult. No mood to study as holiday approaching.. hais. den went home early.. Quarreled with my parents. because of $$$$ ... i have been splurging alot on clothes. and i wanna add more to my collection in my wardobe. zzz.. den kena scolded all dat lor.. -.- kena of sadded lah. cos it is my money i m spending and asking mmy parents for $$$. so i dun find it wrong mahs.zzz. there is this feeling.. last time when i quarrelled with my parents, there is u thr to be a listening ear. but now, i dun have any listening ear le. Didnt know who to confide in. this feeling is scary. de lonely feeling. can't stop it. whenever what i wear to school is also wrong, i wear nicer clothes to school, u all(parents) say i overdress. when i wear more causal, u all say i so shui bian and ah beng look alike.zzz. then what u wan me do.. dun wear ar?!!!=.= Jus dunno what u all wan lah!!!Jus had no mood now le.. hope chalet come soon.. 1 more week to go. At least i can have few days of happines.. :D.





Blogging time~~~ Hmm. got a new wishlist le.. super super long!! hope my pay faster bank in!!! hehe.. wkend was kind of boring again..zzz. LOL.. did many RJs on saturday.. 3 RJs.. 1 stupid talk got 2 RJs and 1 is for Enterprise de.Headache. rest at home de whole sat.. jus go out for meals.
Den sun went to cut hair. cut short le. no more sideburn, short fringe and everywhr short le lah!! But think still not bad, cos hair very fast dry. hahas. Went to T3 for swensen's dinner. den headed to White Sands to walk walk. Saw Greyton too.hahas.My sis & mum bought stuffs. My clever sis once again use my mum to buy things for her. But i wunt get de chance. Cos the stuffs i buy r expensive, my parents are not willing to buy for me using their money, oni if i use my money, they will have no complains. Hais. but nvrm, using my own money and buy will satisfied myself and know the feeling of hard earned money being spent. hahas. My new wish list is below :

Dark Blue,White Skinnies
Black Cardigan
Red,Purple,White Buttoned Shirt(L/S,S/S)
White/Black Bagpack
Geek Specs
Diamond-Studded Watch
Black,White Khakis






My new geek specs!! =)


Back blogging today! hahas. went for a talk aft sch, abt blogging de and how to earn money from blogs.hahas. cool eh. but didnt hear everything lah. cos was trying to play Fifa 09 with manton during de talk. when we started playing awhile, de talk ardy ended.LOL..so went out to play. i had an embarassing defeat to him. NVRM. i will win u one day!! LOL.. den headed to cwp to eat mac and went walk walk awhile. I finally bought my geek specs and a new ear stud. hahas. headed home with amanda and samantha while manton and us split our way home as he took 161 while we take 168.hahas. den alighted at seletar camp and boarded 39 with amanda and now i m home. slping soonb as there is a showdown between me and JH bro aft sch..haahas. 1-on-1 match with him.LOL.. hope i will win!! cos i will not lose to de same person twice!





Headed to TOWN after school. hahas. went with cliques excluding manton. Ate KFC at Shaw house and headed to Wisma to Cotton On and bought two polo tee. hahas. almost bought purple(international GAY colour) LOL. but chose red and grey instead.hahas. den went to ART friend at Ngee Ann Civic Plaza. amanda wanted to buy some stuffs to make for her BF.. hahas. so envious and sweet of her. ROFL. and they end up speaking about my stuffs. zzz. i didnt mean to act emo. hahas. anyway, i m not angry or anything. JUST FINE!!! ^^ den took MRT back home and den walk home with amanda. hahas. my hand almost got pulled off bcos she was pulling my arm when she a cat. IT'S JUST A CAT!!! LMAO!!! did RJ and now gonna slp le cos tml there is UT. I DUN LOOK LIKE A BAD BOY!! I'M A GUAI KIA WHO DON'T PON SCHOOL DE, SO DUN INFLUENCE ME..ROFL~~~~~ Counting down to the days we gonna have fun in the chalet during the holidays!!! =) SLEEPING TIME!!!





Today is gonna end soon.
Today was supposed to be a memorable day.
But time cannot be turned back.

Back to blog after sometime,cos i m lazy to blog. Jus normal life now. Meet up with cliques before school and after sch to go home. Lunchbreak will meet up with my 哥儿们, den go lunch before heading back to class to do ppt and have "class bonding" hahas. den aft ppt, meet up with sec sch cliques and den head home together. really nth special with my life now. So, will some people spice up my life now and jio me out for fun.HAHAS.

Today had UT, kind of manageable bahs. hahas. den was doing maths module today, can say is simple bahs. hahas.cos i m smart uh~~ ROFL!! FOund out i got another A for Science..xD. 3 straight As in a week for Science. Super happy. My record of As stand at 8 for the moment. But it will increase soon.LOL. 1 week of straight As, was de best i had so far. I was elated of de results i could produce in dat wk. anyway, hui min!!! i m gonna catch up with u sooner or later!!LOL. Headed to CWP for long john silver with amanda they all to eat. den head home. LOL. Back home resting now!

I jus tell myself to perish the thoughts but sometimes it jus flew back into my mind. When i m alone and i will anyhow think le.Which is what Jian Hao said to me. But thanks for ur concern uh~ Especially JH who talk to me so much uh~X3. Appreciate what u said and being there for me!! 兄弟！！！ HEHES!! Let's hope the thoughts wunt come back again?! but is there another miracle and possibility? Shall i try and wait?? ):

What Delvyn Means

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you. You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night. Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

Weekends is ardy here, but i dunno wad to do. Hais. Jus wanna stone at home. i think my life now is meaningless. Seriously. So little communication within my family, den no one to turn to. No one to talk to, no one to be my listening ear. No more. Jus felt different. even had no more confidence and mood to go training. zzz.. jus hopeless at time. some many lonely moments. walking to interchg alone, travelling home alone sometimes. jus dun like de feeling. )= but i think i must get to it. there are friends sometimes. but the feel is jus different from being with u. de freedom i had now compared to last time, but i have no idea whr to go, dunno how to spend it. jus let time fly pass me. what's left now is photos and memories.zzz.. i guess i dun do what i say bahs. wanna forget yet i cnt. the words i say when asked by friends whether i will forget and get over with it but i jus cannot do it. zz.. but think time will heal all wounds. Let's hope so. Anyway, sorry for the emo post.





Yoh Yoh~ back to blog... =D.

7th Oct : Had UT in the morning, enterprise!!! quite easy bahs. but had not enuf time to complete every single question but still got attempt all..hahas. den had computing module for the day. Seems like every computing lesson i also slack de. Den will watch movies/drama or play games. And i get away with it!!Muhahas. Spend time in the class aft sch till abt 6pm den headed to sports complex. Went back to bbal training aft a year of not having a proper training le. No more the stamina and momentum i had last time. zzz.. kind of disappointed lor with myself lor. -.- but i will go train and do physical training instead le. but i find something wrong with my basketball skills le, whenever i see good players, and when i play match against them, i will shun away from them under de basketball or lay-up. seems like i afraid of them.zzz. last time oso not like dat de. hais. need to work harder to get back my form lor. KAMPATEH!! aft training, walk to interchange alone, den some memories flashes thru my mind, maybe i'm not used to alone bahs. hais. jus cannot adapt for now bahs.. but i dun wan to think too much le.

8th Oct : meet with cliques and bused to sch. hahas. thks for waiting uh~ LOL. cos i'm de one who always late..ROFL!! had cognitive today. quite difficult. need understanding, this sem the cognitive really more difficult den previous sem lor..hahas. but will work hard.!! Anyway, i have gotten 3 As in a row le. tml got Sci UT. and i will work hard to do well. So i'm going to study now!!! Byes..






JH^2...hahas.

#1 JH.

#2 JH..



Just back from outing with friends.. hahas. is like 1st outing bahs.. got me, Jian Hao and Zhi Bing Kor Kor, den got Hui min and Grace.1st time went out with them. hahas. headed to city hall. meet up and den went to mac to chill awhile and eat..den aft that we quarrel to go whr.hahas. some wan go Kbox. but i dun wan go.cos i dun sing..hahas. so headed to pool at marina square..played awhile then arcade-ing at marina de arcade.den headed over to suntec the arcade to play to.hahas. memories of small de time when always go arcade de. hahas. den ate dinner at de suntec food court.(sorry ZB..no bah ku teh for u to eat.next time bring u go balestier to eat.dun sad!) LOL. chilled and slacked at esplanade with Jack Daniel's Whiskey. hahas. 1 small bottle and i pay for it. so i drank de most. ahahs. 2 full cups of "on the rock". then 1 cup of plus mixer de. but think no "kid" bahs. hahas. oso like no effect de.hahas. but got one thing we attracted a lot of attraction. is we made alot of noise. but of cos i m not part of them lor.hahas. OF COS!!! i m not a attention seeker.ROFL!!! but hope to go out more with my new found brothers and collegues bahs.LOL.. =)





Let Bygones Be Bygones





Thanks friends out there who cared for me. Didnt know so many ppl cared abt me.LOL. but thanks anyway. Special thks to Yuru, who dedicated 1 part of her blog post for me. Thanks. i really appreciate it. Thanks people who gave me encouraging words too and cheer me up. It did help! Guess it would be natural to u all. but to me, that is not de natural me. I wonder when i will be "normal". Becaming back what i used to be le. Will you come back and get me on the right track? I really miss you lots.
Had a chat with u on msn jus now. I understand what u meant and what u wanted. But those responsiblities and freedom u wanted, does having a relationship doesn't get u all dat? I dun wish to force or blame u. i was partly at fault. But life without you really hurts. I m at lost at sometimes. dunno who to speak to if i had problems. I dunno how to forget this relationship too.The alone Delvyn would and willing to wait for you. cos i still love you lots. X3.





Seriously, i dunno wad to do now. cos my whole mind is upset and messy. If i could turn back the time, i dun understand why this relationship would turn out like this, i have ardy give it out all. i dunno why u r like this already, jus what caused the "change" in u ? U left and go without giving me a valid reason. Your words are contradicting and one time u said feelings grew stronger, and the next moment u wanted to break up? There are no problems that cannot be solved. U are afraid of urself, u cannot overcome ur own fear of solving problems. Dats why no problems are solved and we ended up like this. i m sure u still remember what u have said previously. Whatever u r doing now is going against ur heart. all those excuses u gave is to run away and avoid.. Don't u know nothing matters more than losing the person u love. Just hope u wunt regret ur actions cos i nvr ever regreted being with u in this relationship for 5 months and 2 weeks. Because i love u still.x3.

I love you still. but do i get the chance to love u again? ):

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