A emo post~~~~Many things struck my mind on that day and wild thoughts have been running thru my head the past few days.jus cnt help thinking. hais. i guess i m paranoid just like a girl -.- I kinda of feel that i have no more goals in my life. a helpless soul jus flowing in and out of sch without learning anything. it jus sucks now~~~ Sunday got a f**king big lecture from my parents. They lecture me and said many things that is like i live in this world for no meaning. they say my attitude, my behaviour sucks all dat. talk to them like wan fight all that.... my dad even said something that really hurt me and makes me think and wonder lor. he said :" u(me)) go think why ur gf break up with you(me)?" is like fuck lor!!! at dat moment i really did wonder.. up till now i m still thinking and reflecting on myself. sadist~~~~


One more thing.. i guess i have lost alot of things in poly... compared to sec sch, i really missed those days, seriously...... Family, Close Friends, Brothers.. all gone since i came into poly. life being turned topsy-turvy. Jus dunno why these thoughts appear but it is really making my distracted. jus plunging myself into computer games and weight training. jus dunno why i would be so into weights training lahs.. but will try to make a better build den now bahs...

All these horrifying thoughts changing my lifestyle!!! tot of drowning myself in alcohol, but will it kill all problems, it will not.. alcohol is jus a temporary pill to forget the problems. the next day, it is still there and it will be worse.... when willl everything stop??????????????????????????????